@hadeanhaiii, 24 – Funded

Variety streamer hadeanhaiii (she/they) primarily plays story-based games and occasionally dabbles in FPS games. But this JBL Quantum Grant winner is also passionate about content creation and hasn’t let some setbacks stand in the way.

What is your dream in gaming and/or esports? 

I want to elevate women and help them work towards making it to the center stage so we can get more representation, from behind the scenes to in front of the camera at a LAN. I want to work on having an all-women’s inclusive LAN event for all games. I’m hoping to start in Apex and work my way from there with the great help from my friends.

Additionally, my personal goals include creating content again. I am hoping to be able to focus on that in the new year and maybe grow as a content creator. I was on the path of being a full-time content creator a few years ago, but unfortunately, my family did not approve and I was forced to stop and my dream was crushed, severely affecting my mental health, drive and motivation.

How will this award from the 1,000 Dreams Fund help you reach your goals? 

This award will help me reach my goals by helping me with the debt I took on to upgrade my PC, and to help provide some funding on the project I manage with my two other co-founders, Angelz and zona, called Womens Circuits, a scrims server that is specifically for the women’s Apex competitive scene.

What does being a 1,000 Dreams Fund – JBL Quantum Grant recipient mean to you? 

It means so much that there are others out there who want to elevate women, and I hope to see the 1,000 Dreams Fund have the opportunity to help support even more women!

Women are underrepresented in gaming and esports. What can we do to change this?

We need a louder voice on the platforms we currently have. Too often I see women speak and men speak over them. Additionally, we need people to see that we are human beings worthy of respect and understanding. We shouldn’t be scared to speak up in game.

What are some of the challenges you have faced along the way?

Every woman can relate to trying to speak up in game, either in a casual or competitive setting, and very often I have been brought to tears of hating myself because of the harsh words of men on the internet. From being called slurs to getting threats, it has made me want to remove myself from gaming. In esports, I’ve run into many people who would doubt my abilities as a competitor and as an organizer, and it’s extremely disheartening.

What advice do you have for women who want to work in the gaming or esports industry? 

You’ll be faced with many challenges and opposition. You’ll be faced with hate and have to deal with people who don’t appreciate or see the importance of what you do. But remember why you do all this in the first place. Don’t lose sight of your mission.

How do you stay motivated and focused on your goals? 

I think about the people I want to help, and that their progress will be slowed down if there’s one less person helping them.