@goodmornindreamer, 27 – Funded

You’ll find goodmornindreamer (she/her) getting excited about anything cozy — from reading books, to nature, drinking tea, and more. But that doesn’t mean this JBL Quantum Grant winner doesn’t also love zombies and horror. On her stream, she also doesn’t shy away from speaking about anxiety, invisible disabilities, and growing up with a genetic disorder called ectrodactyly.

What is your dream in gaming and/or esports? 

My dream is to bring representation in gaming for the limb different and disabled communities. As someone growing up with a limb difference, I never saw anyone who looked like me in media or that I could fully relate to. I want to change this narrative to not only bring more representation, but also to show people how worthy and capable we are.

How will this award from the 1,000 Dreams Fund help you reach your goals? 

This award will help me to invest in better equipment for my streaming and recording setup. There are so many ideas I’ve had but couldn’t do because of my current setup.

What does being a 1,000 Dreams Fund – JBL Quantum Grant recipient mean to you? 

It means the world to me because it shows that someone who has limb differences and openly identifies as disabled is capable of following their dreams.

Women are underrepresented in gaming and esports. What can we do to change this?

Continue providing opportunities and workshops for women, and promoting the resources offered by 1,000 Dreams Fund. I feel like not a lot of women know about this, and unless they have heard about someone who has gotten this grant, they may not feel like there are opportunities out there for them to help pursue their dreams.

What are some of the challenges you have faced along the way?

As a woman who not only is disabled, but is also multiracial, it has been hard to really find places where I feel like I can fit in or where I’m allowed to belong. As someone that is disabled, we also tend to experience a lot of ableism and get looked at like we aren’t capable. I have struggled to feel like I’m worthy and allowed to be apart of the spaces I’m in.

What advice do you have for women who want to work in the gaming or esports industry? 

1. Keep going! It may be hard, but try not to compare yourself to the others and their timeline for success. You have your own story to write and only you can be the person to write it.

2. Take breaks. It’s okay to schedule time in to take care of yourself. Your mental and physical health is so important.

How do you stay motivated and focused on your goals? 

It’s honestly not easy — and, a lot of the time, it’s hard not to let the burnout win. I keep a folder of messages I’ve received from people thanking me for sharing my story and how excited they were to see someone who has the same disability as them. Whenever I’m unsure about what I’m doing, I read through those messages and am reminded of why this is so important and why I want to keep doing this.